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Madness

2009-06-18T11:55:44Z

I've been trying to apply more taoist-buddhist teachings in my life recently.
I was first inspired by a friend and I even told him that, and that I will try my best to follow in his footsteps as they say. As a result of this, I've been trying my best to laugh things off, more than I normally do.

And now, I face a predicament.
I feel anger. Anger that I do not like feeling.
I know that I should be kind and patient about these things, but recent crazy events have shown me that keeping your anger or some other negative emotions inside will not lead to any good, and may even lead to a nervous breakdown (or even a tumor, they say) in the future.

Then, yesterday, this message came to me -
If you have to force yourself to be kind, to love, to feel compassion, you've missed the first step of filling in your own self with these emotions.

I know I should not let things that I read take control of my life, but, I must say, all this now confuses me. I don't want any BV (bad vibes) in my life right now, or ever. But what is it really that I need to do for me to be at peace with myself?

Is it a step by step thing?

A. You have to be kind and patient.
B. You cannot force yourself to be kind, to love, and to feel compassion for it would not be true.
C. You shouldn't keep your emotions bottled up inside.

Which comes before which?
How is it to let go of your anger without actually letting it go - out there in the open?

i hate it

2009-05-20T19:15:02Z

when people try to figure me out,
cause i don't even try to.

i hate it more
when people think they've figured me out,
cause i don't even think i have.

the tendency is to resent and grow apart.
last time, it even led to abolition.

CAREFUL, BE.

for the first time in years and years and years, i plan to spend valentines - single :)

2009-01-27T19:52:39Z

woohoo! kinda excited :))

Do you still have feelings for your ex?
    wait. let's see in a couple of days.

Have you ever been given roses?
    yes. i hate roses. lilies :)

What is your all-time favorite romance movie?
    ooh does edward scissorhands count? sweet november then

How many times have you honestly been in love?
    what? why honestly? is there a fake kind?
Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate?
    nu-uh!

Whats your current problem?
    boys are the problem all the time :)) seriously, gaining freedom - how to and should i.

Have you ever had your heart broken?
    ofcourse.

Long Distance Relationships?
    no way. fairview and makati is already long distance in my book.

Have you ever seen a friend as more than a friend?
    malamang. that's why there are boyfriends.

Do you believe the statement, "Once a cheater always a cheater"?
    ugh. omygod i hate this question. seriously. from the looks of things - yes.

How many kids do you want to have?
    3?

What is(are) your favorite color(s)?
    this question is lost. the answer is apple green.

Do you know that snails do not have permanent gender?
    really? i wish i was a snail.

Do you believe you truly only love once?
    ofcourse not.

Imagine you're 79 and your spouse just died, would you get re-married?
    will i even reach 79? haha ofcourse! ako pa!

At what age did you start noticing the opposite sex?
    day one haha or was it in kindergarten?

What song do you want to hear at your wedding?
    i haven't got a clue. just make him play something for me.

Do you know someone who likes you?
    loaded question grabe too dangerous to answer :))

Do you like anyone?
    hi. i'm sandy.

Are you currently in love?
    no. potato.

i drink.

2009-01-22T16:39:57Z

i bitch.
i laugh.
i drink some more.
i tell.
i listen.
i drink some more.
i create.
i destroy.
i drink some more.

i'm fucked up
but i'm happier this way
...than ever before.

(umiinom ako. yun lang yun. tama na drama. tama na reklamo.)

i could care less.

2008-12-31T22:37:07Z

that's my one and only resolution for everything this 2009.
happy new year :)

the best and the rest of 2008

2008-12-19T17:17:14Z

i got this from xian. reposting it cause some of it made me cry - of many different reasons.

The Best And The Rest 89

July 11, 2008 →

The Top Ten Signs That You’ve Found Your One True Love

Jill - When you find romance in the routine.
Grace - Despite all the new technology, he still sends me snail mail; he’s been doing that for the past 4 years.
Mockbuster - He leaves skid marks in his undies all the time, but you wash them anyway.
Scuderia - When you’d rather not sleep because reality is far better than your dreams.
No name - I’m married. Met another woman. Fell madly in love and had a 2-1/2 yr affair. My wife told me to do what I needed to, to be happy. Ended affair. My wife, my one true love.
GeLengZan - I married the man who is the exact opposite of everything I thought I wanted in a man.
Doorknob - When you hear the word, “home”, what comes to mind is not a place, but that person.
Mockbuster - After 8 years of being together, I still find myself smiling just by looking at him.
No name - If he’s your strength AND your weakness.
Maynman - When you buy Chickenjoy and your first instinct is to give her the crispy skin. When that happened to me and I gave it to her, I was shocked myself!
Hapihenri - When you found someone you never thought you always wanted.
Kobe Kong - The moment I saw her, I instantly knew that I won’t be spending my life alone and unhappy.
Estranged - If you find yourself compromising your dreams just so he could achieve his.
Dongster - If she still loves you even if you used to work as a “reflexologist”.
TReiz - When you’ve met someone who infuriates you, yet you can’t stop thinking about them.
SPY Shadow - If, when you showed him your picture when you were still a man, and he nonchalantly answered, “So?”
Mr. Perk - Pag sinabi na niyang, “Pare, iiwan ko na si Mare.”
Dru - If a certain female DJ outs you on national radio, but you really don’t mind because having him in your life was so worth all the embarrassment.
Estrellita - If he makes you feel like you’re the most beautiful woman in the world, even if you’re not.
Jose de vengenge/Geyp - Love sucks. True love swallows.

The Best And The Rest 88

July 10, 2008 →

The Top Ten Last Words Of A Virgin

Maximo/Design8ed Driver/Ronwaldo/Manoy/Abel - Inside a bus, a bunch of armed men went onboard and said at gunpoint: Holdaper: “Lahat ng babae gagahasain!” Young Girl: “Maawa na po kayo! Reypin niyo na lahat, wag lang ang lola ko!” Lola: “Che! Epal tong batang to! Di mo ba siya narinig, lahat daw rereypin! LAHAT!”
Tcams - “Pare wag…wag yan…may lotion sa drawer…”
Atty Cabs - “Hep, hep, sabi mo hahawakan ko lang?”
Jamfong - Holdaper: “Holdap to!” Girl: “SAKL0L0! Rape! Raaape!” Holdaper: “Teka, bakit rape? Ang sabi ko holdap to!” Girl: “Eto naman…nagsu-suggest lang naman…”
MNEMONIC - Sa mga old maid na about to do it, bagay ang kantang: “Bakit ngayon ka lang dumating sa buhay ko, pilit binubuksan ang sarado ko ng pu…”
Alem - “Dont! Stop! Dont! Stop! Don’t stop…don’t stop…”
Rogie - Girl: “Idedemanda kita ng 2 counts of rape!” Boy: “Bakit 2 counts? Eh isang beses lang naman kita ginalaw ah!” Girl: “Ay bakit, hindi na ba tayo uulit?”
Mr. Perk - “Free taste! Free taste, po!”
MMR - THOUGHT FOR TODAY: “Do not worry about avoiding sexual temptations. As you get older, they start avoiding you.” HAHAHA. TANGINA MATAMAAN SANA.
bottom dweller - “Huwag! Huwag! Hayup ka! Tarantado! Taran…taran…taraaaaap!”
Sc - “Sabi mo parang kagat lang ng langgam…masarap pala kumagat ang langgam…”
Dru - “Wag po, koya! Di ako si Enday! Si Dodong aku!”
Jun13 - “Puwede daliri ko muna gamitin ko, for practice?” (A sushi virgin, about to eat sushi for the very first time trying to use chopsticks.)
No name - A girl was so quiet on her wedding night that the next day, her family asked why she was so silent. The girl answered, “Eh diba sabi niyo, don’t talk when your mouth is full?”
Ynaki - “Come and get it, walang pangit sa virging galit!”
Jose de vengenge - Girl: “Ako ba ang unang babaeng dinala mo dito?” Boy: “Oo naman, dati kasi puro lalaki…”
Rogie - Koya: “Di mo sinabi sa kin…first time mo pala?” Yaya: “Hende po koya, elong ko yan…”

The Best And The Rest 81

June 27, 2008 →

The Top Ten Things To Say To A Stinky Person

Alaric - “Amoy kang paa na binabad sa baha, na tinuyo sa pilit, habang nasa loob ng sapatos na may amag na bulok!”
Geyp - “Sana pag sinasabi mong may ‘asim’ ka pa, sana hindi yung literal…”
Valkira - “Wow, yung amoy mo nambubugbog ng kulangot!”
Pink Strawberry - “I know what you ate last summer.”
The Designated Driver - “Dahil sa yo, na-confirm ko na magkarugtong nga ang puwet at ang bibig!”
No name - From our P.E. teacher: “Uy, nangangalmot ang amoy mo ha!”
Rodel - “Pare, sino pa yung presidente nung huling ligo mo?”
No name - “Ang bangis ng amoy mo, tumatambay sa ilong! Nagdiya-diyaryo na, nagkakape pa!”
No name - Man 1: “Pare, umutot ka?” Man 2: “Hindi, nag-burp lang.”
Pabzpogi - “May kaamoy kang artista…si Smellany Marquez!”
Jose de vengenge - “Uy pare hulaan ko fave song mo! ‘Insensitive’. Eh sakin hulaan mo. ‘Barely Breathing’.”
Athanatos/Gibo - “Ang breath mints mo ba ay ‘the seven dwarves’? Paki check nga, parang patay na yung isa…”
JB - “Pare, ipagmalaki mo yang putok mo, pinagpawisan mo yan eh!”
Loipogi/Guelmytes/Hanazawa Rui/Fat One - After someone burps: “Hulaan ko ulam mo kanina…hmmm…ebak?”
Astroboy - “Daig ng hininga mo ang utot ko!”
Jet - “Miss, anong shampoo mo, ‘Gee Your Hair Smells’?”
SPY Shadow - “Alam ko ang favorite band ng kilikili mo — Garbage!”
Geyp - “Para kang labanos…maputi, pero amoy utot.

The Best And The Rest 80

June 26, 2008 →

The Top Ten Bitch Quotes

Tippi - On the first day of the Mango sale, the sister of my friend was looking around and picked up a dress when a woman at the counter started screaming,”Put that down, that’s mine!” The sister of my friend looked up, looked at the woman up and down, raised an eyebrow, and replied, “Excuse me. You are NOT a ’small’”
Maximo - A supervisor once told a worker who has difficulty in understanding instructions, “Ang ulo, hindi lang yan pinapatong sa leeg, ginagamit din yan sa pagiisip.”
Springturns - A friend told another friend, “Naku, magma-makeup muna ako, baka magmukha akong yaya mo.” The other friend replied, “Wag na, magmumukha ka lang yaya ko na naka-makeup.” MAJINBU THIS IS SO PERFECT FOR YOU. AND NO, I WASN'T THE ONE WHO GAVE YOU THAT NICKNAME. :))
Bennett - I told my then boyfriend during a fight, “Even on your smartest day, you’re not half as smart as I am on my dumbest!”
Riverbanks - “Ako, I was born beautiful. Ikaw, you were just born.”
Astroboy - A letter posted on a car windshield in UP: “Sir/madam, the parkng space that we have reserved is for the College Secretary, not for you. Guard.”
Shining - When I saw friend I haven’t seen in a long time, she told me, “Grabe, lalo ka pang tumaba!” So I told her, “Ikaw din, lalo ka pang pumangit!”
Eylek - Pag sinisingitan ako sa pila, nagpaparinig ako. I say, “Ang pilang ito, according to beauty. Mga panget muna.”
Gorgeous Bitch - “Unlike you, tinuruan ako ng mga magulang ko na hindi pumatol sa may asawa.”
Jose de vengenge - From the movie She’s The Man: “Girls with an ass like mine don’t go out with boys with a face like yours.”
Joe - “Maliban sa mukha mo, ano pang problema mo?”
Anfernee - I once told an officemate who kept on bragging about her new shoes, “Sale, right?”
Pong Pagong - I pointed a “7 items or less” sign to a clueless pasosyal at the supermarket. She bitchily answered, “I can read!” Sabay irap. So I shot back with, “I know, but can you count?”
Astroboy - “Tuwing nakikita kita, gusto ko mag-sorry sa eyes ko.”
Dru - “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to be bitchy. It’s an involuntary reaction whenever I encounter ugly people.”
Astroboy - Man: “Hey baby, what’s your sign?” Woman: “Do not enter.”
Astroboy - Man: “how do you like your eggs in the morning?” Woman: “Unfertilized.”
Aeon- After receiving her pay slip and realizng how much she’s paying for tax, a sosyal officemate exclaimed, “Ang mga poor ba nagbabayad din ng tax?”
Riverbanks - During a hike at Mt. Mayon, we had a maarte companion. When we ran out of water, our guide got us some from a ntural spring. The maarte girl said, “Dini-drink ba yan?” I told her, “Bakit, sa inyo ba ang water chinu-chew?”
Noel - Overheard from 2 kids talking. Kid 1: “Lahat tayo galing kay Adam and Eve.” Kid 2: “Hindi yan totoo. Sabi ng papa ko, galing tayo sa unggoy.” Kid 1: “Hindi natin pinag-uusapn ang pamilya mo, kaya wag kang magulo!” TALINO TALAGA NG MGA BATA. FAVORITE!
Loipogi - A friend told his officemate: “I’m impressed. I’ve never encountered such a small mind inside such a big head before.”
Pachuchay - Bading: (envying a girl na crush ng crush nya) “Isang butas lang ang lamang mo sa kin!”
ACER - I was staring at an ugly bystander in their street. The ugly guy snapped, “Bakit ang sama mo makatingin?” I snapped back, “Eh bakit ang sama mo tignan?”
Persh - A friend once told me, “Ang ganda mo!” I answered: “Thank you, sana ikaw rin…”
Jose de vengenge - I told this to an ex: “I must admit you brought religion to my life. I never believed in hell till I met you.”
Gorgeous Bitch - “When a cashier tells me she doesn’t have change, I say: “And…kaninong problema yun?”
Em-em Unggoy - “Kung lahat ng tao galing sa unggoy, bakit ikaw, mukha kang kabayo?

twilight, pare.

2008-12-08T17:16:02Z

Kasi pare ganito daw yun. may isa daw babae na hot daw pare. pero maputla siya kasi hindi siya inalagaan ng nanay niya pare. tapos pare emo daw siya kasi nga daw hindi siya mahal ng mundo at para siyang patay na bata na galit sa mundo. tapos pare, lumipat daw siya ng tirahan kasi daw masyado daw siyang emo para sa luma niyang tirahan. sabi niya sa nanay niya "tangina mo nay gusto ko lumipat kay tay". tangina pare hindi nagalit nanay niya. sabi lang ng nanay niya "tangina mo pare wag ka magmura". so lumipat siya sa tatay niya di ba? pagkarating niya dun sabi niya, "tangina erpat bakit maulan dito?" sabi ng erpat niya "gago "bur" months na! malamig na tangena". so nagtaka yung babaeng simula ngayon ay tatawagin na lang nating "babaeng maputla at emo". so pumasok siya sa school di ba? binigyan siya ng truck ng tatay niya pare. sabi ng tatay niya "tangina mo sa'yo na tong truck ko". sabi niya "salamat tay". pagkarating niyang school tsong, may nakita siyang lalaking mukhang bangkay pero pogi. sakto. pogi pero mukhang bangkay. sabi ni babaeng maputla at emo "hot pare". nung chem lab na ni babaeng maputla at emo, natagpuan niyang lab partner niya yung poging bangkay. so nung tinignan siya nung poging bangaky, ang asim ng mukha nito. mukhang nandiri ata kay babaeng maputla at emo. sabi ni poging bangkay "tangina mo". sabi ni babaeng maputla at emo "tangina KA". sabi ni poging bangkay "tangina NIYA oh *tumuro sa teacher nila*". sabi ni babaeng maputla at emo "oo nga noh. TANGINA MO". sabi ni poging bangkay "tangina mo gago bampira ako". tapos naghubad siya ng damit at kumintab ang katawan niya kasi linagyan niya ng glitters ang abs niya kasi tigas siya at ganun na ang mga tigas ngayon na nagpupuntang emba. so pare na in love si babaeng maputla at emo kay poging bangkay. si poging bangkay naman sige lang kasi sex din daw yun. so ayun. angshweet shweet nila. "eow poh... ahihihihi" "bebe mwahugz,..... ^^," so tapos nun nagpunta sila sa damuhan kasi.... alam mo na. tapos sabi ni poging bangkay "ikaw na buhay ko ngayon" sabi ni babaeng maputla at emo "tangina mo gago patay ka na". sabi ni poging bangkay "TANGINA KA". tapos nagsex sila so basically pare yun lang yung mga importanteng nangyari sa buong storya. intense noh? kaya pala nahhook lahat ng tao.

i'm a bitch and you're "the other"

2008-11-28T16:27:39Z

i'm actually writing a long one about that, but it's not this one.
that one's in the works and it's gonna be so bad. haha.
life's been good. well, except for the centaur - not so good.
sawang sawa na ko tumulala sa shop. ayoko na magpakalost.
aaron ang daya mo talaga.

i haven't watched twilight yet. can you believe?
we've been putting all our moolah in cigars - ALL our moolah and most of our leisure time.

i'm actually writing because of anthro 10 today. the prof was telling us the effect of anthropologists studying "the other" - the exotic, the small-scale, the strange, while citing st. louis loves dem filipinos and legaspi's expedition.

during the world's fair, the filipinos were exhibited and categorized. the categorizations were savage, barbaric and civilized. the savage group was made up of headhunters and dog eaters. the barbaric group was made of tribes who had developed rituals and dances. the civilized group was made up of the itas - wearing americanas and bahags at the same time. the filipinos were such a hit. the people were so amused.

the anthropologists tend to develop a superiority complex over the one's they are observing, hence the being made an exhibit of. in legaspi's ethnographic logs, the filipinos were treated as if they were just flora or fauna. they were categorized as savage or not fully human. the filipinos were "the other" - the exotic, the strange, and, logically to them, the less intelligent.

AJ: bagay ka palang maging anthropologist...
Sandy: haha. ok. i'll start using the term "the others" from now on.

so there. everyone says i'm so mean and such a bitch. they've always said that but i've always thought i was the strange one though. now i'm observing and i'm extremely amused.
kasi naman may mga ita na naka americana at bahag e! trying to stand out but are just so average, or in this case, primitive underneath. (oy di lang ako nagsabi niyan) :))

CONGRATULATIONS OBAMA! HOORAY WORLD!

2008-11-05T13:05:19Z

i'm terribly ecstatic. i just couldn't hold it in.
i swear i was about to cry this morning when i was watching the countdown on cnn - cause i cried when gore lost and i didn't even know why back then.when they were saying that some ballots weren't getting accepted, i was so grrrr waaah omg the republicans are doing the deed again.

but i'm so happy now, i couldn't care less about sir *******. bwahahahaha!

'This is your victory'

Audio Slideshow:This is our moment.

aj: paano kung front lang lahat yun ni obama.
ako: well, this is the time to find out.

this little girl still has some hope for the world :)

i'm happy.

2008-10-25T19:23:06Z

the challenge is to stay that way.

i'm so gullible.

2008-10-22T14:40:30Z

7 things that scare me:

1) loneliness
2) discovery
3) losing weight
4) mediocrity
5) losing someone
6) losing someone to someone else :))
7) karma

7 things that I like the most:

1) my friends
2) aj
3) f*art
4) dancing
5) shopping
6) winning
7) my addictions :)

7 things that I couldn't live without (aside from food, clothing, shelter, & oxygen):

1) my friends
2) aj
3) f*art
4) make-up
5) direction
6) network
7) my addictions :)

7 things that I treasure (aside from family, friends, & work):

1) my shoes
2) my attitude
3) the hurdles i've overcome especially went it comes to...boys :))
4) adjusting to UP
5) my creativity
6) my nailpolish!
7) being the last one standing according to mix :))

7 things that I plan to do before I die:

1.) ride on a zebra
2.) photograph the sahara
3.) climb a major major mountain - nothing specific
4.) work in a major design firm
5.) open up shop with my brother and with kash and kristia
6.) have a big church wedding
7.) try every drug once?

7 things that i COULD live without:

1) a phone obviously
2) money - but i won't
3) feminists
4) wanna be bitches
5) clubbing - proven it
6) close-minded people
7) and this heat!

7 things that attract me to the opposite gender:

1) a beautiful mind
2) cute/ fresh-faced or in other words - totoy
3) nice hair
4) some type of weirdness
5) street smarts
6) A+ sense of humor
7) hardheadedness

7 things that I say the most:

1) fuck
2) tang ina
3) leche
4) puta
5) shit
6) hello?
7) bwiset

7 people whom I want to take this survey:

wala. this is too fucking long and uninteresting.

hello i'm sandy and i have nothing to do.

2008-10-16T15:41:52Z

1.What do you think of ligaw?
I think ligaw is bullshit. It's the oldest trick in the book. haha. labo. basta my system goes like this - if i can stand you for a month, truly honestly whole-heartedly stand you for a month, then we can be together forever :))

2.Do you believe that friends can be lovers, but past lovers can never be friends?
Someone told me that you can't cause if you're friends with a past lover it's either you were never in-love or you still are. something like that.

3.Do you believe that you can learn to love someone kahit hindi mo talaga sya mahal?
No. It's either you love him or you don't. It's an instantaneous thing diba?

4.Who is your ideal partner?
Someone who isn't like me. Cause a Sandy would drive me crazy.

5. Have you met your soulmate?
Maybe.

6.Is it true na ang love nawawala o nababawasan lang?

Nawawala - scary.

7.Have you really let go of someone?
Yep, but it took a very long time.

8.Are you always serious when it comes to relationships?
Errrrr. I dunno. I'm a walking contradiction but I'm trying to be genuinely serious now.

9.Which one do you prefer, friendship or relationship?
Both, cause when I'm with friends I wanna be with the relationship and when I'm with the relationship I think about my friends.

10.Why?
Endless cycle cycles, man.

11.Have you fallen inlove with your bestfriend?
Wow. can it be the reverse?

12.Have you fallen in love with someone you regret on loving?
No.

13.If yes, why do you regret?

14.Are you in a serious/fling relationship right now or just single?
Serious relationship. There I said it.

15.Are you a player?
Not anymore :)
cross my heart. hope to die. poke a needle through my eye.

16.Are you serious with your relationship?
affirmative.

17.Are you a martyr?
not denying it.

18.Do you believe in marriage first before living in or vice-versa?
the latter obviously.

19.Why?
i said obviously.

20.Are you going to say 'yes' or a 'no,no,no' sa live in?
haaay.

21.Do you look ahead to your future or do you look behind to your past?

both.

22.Why do you think most relationships dont last?
Cause humans aren't built to be purely monogamists or purely polygamist. We're not built to last and people are just so goddamn complicated.

23.Do you really think love can conquer all?
Sure.

24.Do you want to love again?
Sure. In a few milliseconds, later, tomorrow and the day after that.

25.Are you falling in love with someone ryt now?
I'm part of an old couple. hahaha.

ang masasabi ko lang ay...

2008-10-07T17:54:37Z

masaya ako :)

i got around half of what i wanted for my birthday.
i got an ipod instead of an iriver kasi, little did i know, e matagal na palang nakaready ito.
but mostly masaya ako dahil masaya overall ang buhay ko.

kakauwi lang namin. nag shabu shabu kami ng buong pamilya sa high street tapos nagpaiwan kami sa sonjas nila papa, marti at aj. chocolate surprise ang naging cake ko at kinantahan pa nila [mostly marti] ko ng happy birthday habang binoblow ang candle. nakakahiya ako. haha.

kakauwi lang din ni papa at ni aj. iniisip ko nalang kung ano mang klaseng moment ang shinare nila habang naglalakad palabas ng napakaliblib naming village. natutuwa ako dahil open silang nakakapagusap kanina - tungkol man sa blackholes o hydrogen powered engines. well, parang last year lang din kung san una akong [kaming] inofferan ng tatay ko ng yosi. basta masaya ako dahil dito.

ang saya saya ko. ewan. nababaliw na ko sa kasiyahan.
ewan ko nalang ano mararamdaman ko within the week kasi itreatreat ko pa ang brothers at sisters. haha :))

nagpapasalamat din ako sa lahat ng naggreet at nagsabing miss na nila ako. hahahaha. iba na talaga pag wala kang cellphone for more than a month. ngayon ko naramdaman na miss ko na talaga kayong lahat. huhuhu. mfy gusto ko na kayo makita. bitches i miss you! di lang yung. lahat kayo gusto ko na makita. sembreak na. wala nang plates. labas na tayong lahat!

HUGS FOR ALL!

*pictures to follow. after the birthday series nalang.

birthday's coming up.

2008-10-04T16:40:11Z

can you say hint hint? :))

i don't think i'll have much to work with this year
but you know i never give a shit just as long as i get my way.
let's make a semi-doable list then.

a pink iRiver (cause it's so much cuter than an iPod)
atleast one pair of flats
atleast one pair of jeans
get hair majicolor-ed
lots of make-up
a phone (just because it's sembreak)
treats for block U
and
a single party for my brothers and my haven't-been-with-in-months sisters (i miss you!)

so that's more or [no] less it for what i'm getting myself.
use your imagination for getting me something else :))

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2008-09-10T13:26:16Z

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a dog bit me.

2008-07-30T13:29:31Z

if you didn't know already.
it's gross.
it's getting more black everyday.
and his teeth will forever look like staples on my thigh.

there's a first time for everything.
3 shots down. 5 more to go. good luck.

a korean thought i was korean.

2008-07-12T17:24:33Z

top that.

aniong-my-fucking-ass.

just when i thought i was turning muro ami...

so about the blue hair...

2008-05-31T22:08:02Z

i haven't done it yet. i can't. i went to three salons and no one would do it for me.

problem? virgin hair...and i thought that was a good thing. they said that my hair had to get bleached several times for the color to come out. since my hair is sooo fine, hence "virgin hair", it'd probably dry out or worse, fall off. wow. i started to imagine that seen from The Craft where the bitchy girl's blonde hair fell off little by little. eww.

so i'm devirginizing my hair. i had it colored red. it's not really red cause the color didn't stick to my hair. that's another problemo. color won't stick to my hair. what the hell. my hair's brown now.

i hate it. it's like, you know, everyone else's colored hair, no offense. i haven't posted any pictures of me with it [the brown hair] cause i think it comes out weird. and for some reason, people think that i'm korean...well more than they did before. i think it's because of the cut. still, i'm not korean! chinese pwede pa.

i was roaming around the mall by myself last week. there was this one guy and his girl who were staring at me. then they started saying shit like "welcome to the philippines." and "dao ming shu" - however you spell that. i dunno. maybe it was because i was looking back at them as if i didn't get what they meant. grr. people in tiangges keep ripping me off pa. as if i have the money and shit or as if i don't know how things work in tiangges since i'm "foreign". they entertain me more now but they're ripping me off. leche. the last thing i wanted was to look korean. - well aside from my hair falling off that is.

i hate my hair. i should've listened to my mom.

SAVED!

2008-05-05T18:53:34Z

i passed the talent determination test. yahoo! FA na ko :)

Industrial Design here i come!

will color my hair blue now...

i guess goodbye is for never - tagged.

2008-04-29T20:25:54Z

i got tagged by MIX.

I'm tagging kaye, kirstie, barbie, pia, missy, aphrodite, enzo, jenna!

RULES:
A. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves. Tag 8 people. Those who are tagged cannot refuse.
B. These 8 people must state who they were tagged by. You cannot tag the person who tagged you. Continue this game by sending this to 8 other people.

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be? i'd want to kill him but then i'd come to my senses and i'd probably do the same to him. sorry, vengeful soul. haha :))

2. What will you do if you do not share the same feelings as the person who likes you? i'd probably run away cause that's me. i'm a runner. if that won't work, i usually try to piss them off. i called two guys bayot. i'm THAT mean. haha.

3. Who is your favorite guy? seriously, it has to be AJ. i wouldn't be talking about him so much if he wasn't my fave.

4.Are you inlove? when am i not in love? ofcourse i'm inlove. i'm in love 24/7/infinity/forever!

5. What's your ideal lover like? short, thick eyebrows, pretty eyes, a bit chubby, funny, somewhat athletic, very very smart, good conversationalist, bad boy, smoker, addict haha. sakto lang :)

6. loving someone or being loved by someone else? LOVING SOMEONE

7. If the person you like does not accept you, would you continue to wait for them to change their feelings? yeah, but i always fail at waiting. it's my bad. i'll change. ewan. i could try.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do? uh-oh. i like the question but let's not go there.

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy recently? seriously too many to mention but i'm building up on my apathy naman so dapat wala na :)

10. What do you want most in life? happiness and contentment

11. What's most important in a relationship - and don't tell me trust unless you really need to? ok...TRUST.

12. If you found out that your best friend is going out with your boyfriend/girlfriend, how would you react? ok, this has sorta happened. i fought with kat. i told rocky to piss off and stay away from my friends. but... we all got back together again. i have no conviction whatsoever.

13. Who is currently the most important person to you? ME

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is? she's my sister and i love her :)

15. Would you rather be single and rich or married and poor? from the looks of things, i'm going for married and poor.

16. If the person you secretly like cannot recognize you, what would you do/how would you react? errr. that's happening how? HAHA :))

17. Would you give your all in a relationship? sana talaga kaya ko. i would.

18. If you fall in love with two persons simultaneously, who would you pick? haha. the person who wouldn't ask me to chose.

19. What type of friends do you like? I like people from all walks of life. I like people i can just chill with. I like people who party. I like people who do extreme sports. I like people who travel. I like people who love art. I like loud talkative people. i like introverts. I like fratboys most definitely haha. I befriend almost everyone :)

20. What made you fall for the love of your life? i think it's the wit.

*** medyo sineryoso ko pagsagot dito ah. i'm getting a bit confused lately. as if i'm not confused enough. i answered the only real question that has to be answaered. atleast i know i want this nga talaga.

i ran away to the beach.

2008-04-13T14:58:57Z

i admit it. i ran away. i ran away to the beach and tried to leave all the chaos behind.

things are getting more and more messed up. i just hope it stops there. i'm two phones less, believe it or not, and horrible horrible news welcomes me home from the beach -things are worse than before i left.

i don't know what to do anymore. the day of reckoning is fast approaching. you have no idea how scared i am.

i don't know if this is still bordering on depression. i can't cry anymore - for everything and for everyone.

oh love, i miss you so much. i'm so scared and worried. gah. one of these days, mawawala nalang tayo ng parang bula.

i swear on my hair!

2008-04-11T16:45:23Z

pagnakashift ako this summer - meaning pass the talent test and all
i'll dye my hair blue or pink or strawberry blonde or punk red or purple or whatever you want!
i swear!!!

let's play dodgeball guys!

2008-04-07T10:15:59Z

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seven days of freedom (and of wannabe iron-jawed angels)

2008-03-31T09:13:05Z

freedom that i don't think i want.
i need more boundaries or maybe a leash.
honestly, i'm so anti-feminist now that i have no problem with being objectified.

uh-oh. i guess i've crossed another line so i might as well just go there.

let's talk about feminism.

i hate it. i think the whole deal regarding oppression of women is bullshit. women say that men take everything but really it's the other way around. women use that so-called oppression to instill guilt in all of humanity. it's like saying, "hey you fucking monkeys with dicks gave us hell so you have to pay us back now." it's like that thing with obama.

some people, not including me, are saying that you shouldn't vote for obama cause the rest of the black community will get their way - it's leadership by association, or murder or mugging or respect or whatever by association. do you remember that guy from rob schneider's the animal? anyway, it showed that those centuries of slavery and oppression have guilt-ridden most caucasian americans that they feel so sorry for anyone black. they were all nice to the black guy, who even tried to say that he was the criminal, because he was black. let's say that that already gives the blacks some upper-hand. now add obama to that. it screams, "hey you fucking white monkeys gave us hell so now you have to pay us back and respect us more since your leader is one of us.", doesn't it?

i'm all for obama really. my point is just to show that i can liken women to the black community - sexism is racism and all the -isms are alike. just because films and books and revolutions have been held for your/ their cause, they, the oppressed, are always automatically right.

feminism is whacked. why do you revolt when you've had all the power all along? nine months in the womb and all the men in the world are forever in debt to their mothers. God has always given woman the power and men the sorry asses. It's the men who should be crying oppression now. if you know where this is going, the answer is yes. i read chuck palahniuk's choke.it's the man that is obligated to give you a home, feed you, surprise you, and more, and all you have to do is get fucked. that's oppression.

i know a lot of feminists. i don't condemn them all. i only abhor those wannabe iron-jawed angels - who cry for equality, or should i say "equality". You want to be treated as their equal yet you want them to do the heavy lifting for you. You want to be just one of the boys but when they actually do that you call them assholes. You don't want them to objectify you yet you love availing of their money, their flowers, their escorting services. dumating kaya ang valentines at wala kang flowers, badtrip ka noh? When the time comes that you get your way and that he allows you to do absolutely anything, trust me, you'll be crying. cause all you fucks just want to be taken cared of, babied, and deep inside, oppressed. hey, how bout you girls fight the guys' fights? let's see how much of a feminist you are when you have to give up your poise. women empowerment my ass!

this is exactly why i'm not in a sorority. i can't fully grasp sisterhood - and feminism. i firmly believe the saying that before women empowerment, there was only brotherhood. seriously, what's wrong with brotherhood? what's wrong with us all just being brothers? all of us brothers - now that's equality. stop the whole separatist thing. geez.

everyone gets fucked up by everyone else. guys fuck up other guys. girls fuck up guys. black guys beat up white boys. white boys corrupt the whole world. mommas bring home the bacon and daddys eat them. stop all the oppression of women shit cause everyone is oppressed!!!

deep inside you all just want to be babied.

apathy has taken over the world.

2008-03-26T12:15:25Z

i think i lost my phone again.
i think.
but what's new?

as if i'll ever be able to cause mass hysteria in my head ever again.
i told you this summer felt like the worst one coming.
i can't wait for zamba times three!

so to today: YOU SUCK ASS!